Daily stuff

We somehow get through the daily stuff. I had a whole day training today and then came home to chill, walked the dog, did yoga and then pulled myself together to go to a board meeting. It is a part if my job expectations to attend but this month's meeting was in the elementary where lev went to sixth grade and I found myself outside the school crying instead of going in.
It is hard to know what will impact me. Sometimes it is seeing a kid with whacky hair or bits of dog food or a banana peel.

Still, I am surprised that I can get myself together to go to work and sleep and eat and to write in this blog. It makes more sense when I collapse on the lawn. I have such high barriers up sheltering me from the horrible truth that I feel like I let the deep, dark fullness of our reality just sink in bit by bit. It is devastating but the world around us keeps going.

Rebecca