Just back from Open House at my school. People at work seem to think I'm doing very well - inspiring for others that have dealt with grief, etc. But it's just because I'm good at putting on a happy face and getting through the day.
It is good to go to work and get things done, usually. But, then if I appear too competent I get more work and higher expectations. Really, I'm doing far worse than they imagine.
Would it be better to just let myself fall apart? I don't think so, but there is no right or wrong in this raw deal we have.
