When you have a child, the person you were before dissolves, and you become the father of that child. When you have a second child, you become the father of two children. That is who I was and who I am. I am able to continue day-to-day normalcy because I live in denial. I am still acting like the father of two children. But sometimes the reality slips under the veil, and my core being understands what has happened. It knocks me off my feet. The thought has so much power that it gets swept away before I can grab onto it.
I feel cast adrift, looking for a new shore to anchor on, and seeing nothing but boundless ocean.
Who am I now?
