Can you deny, there's nothing greater
Nothing more than the traveling hands of time?
Sainte Genevieve can hold back the water
But saints don't bother with a tear stained eye
(lyrics from "Tear Stained Eye" by Son Volt)The other day I was started thinking about the idea that Lev's death was "inevitable", somehow pre-ordained, part of the natural order of the universe. And for a moment I felt something inside of me give in. It was as if I had been holding back the ocean for all this time, and I was suddenly willing to let it flow over me. It was a genuine moment of peace, and I felt some of my anger and bitterness melt away. The feeling quickly faded, but the memory lingers as a profound lesson.
