December 7, 2010

Holidays

I thought the holidays wouldn't be that hard. It seems like everything is hard anyway, so I didn't think it would make a difference.

Nonetheless, I am finding it quite difficult even while trying to avoid it.
Every day it is hard to get up. Life just keeps going on without him.

All these kids are excited about getting gifts. People plan gatherings with family. Kids get older, and bigger, and need new clothes.

Consumerism
Cookies
Latkas with homemade applesauce
Joy
Excited people

I feel so sorry for Lev.
He is missing out on so much.

Jaal comes home next week, but Lev won't be coming home.

I just want him back.
That is all I want for the holidays.

Rebecca