Last night I dreamed a beautiful, terrible dream.
We were together - Tony, Jaal, Lev, Liana and I.
Lev got to see Liana, Liana got to meet him, finally, Jaal and Lev and Tony and I were hanging out like normal.
Lev was back to visit for several days. He even spent the night at John and Jeana's which was next door.
It was so real, so nice to have him back.
Then I woke up. Cuddled between Tony and Liana.
Disoriented, relieved, full and empty.
Today I bring in the memory, the experience, the love, and try not to focus on the emptiness and the loss that accompanies it.
I have taught Liana the word "frazzled."
