Sometimes my gut still hurts so much from missing Lev.
Maybe it's worse because it's fall and school started without him
Maybe it's worse because he is missing his senior year
Maybe it's worse because Jaal went back to school
Maybe it's worse because I am thinking about grief group
Maybe it's worse because the season is changing
Maybe it's worse because I ate a banana without him today
Maybe it's just the normal yo-yo of grief and some days or weeks are worse than others.
I think I will feel better in another decade or so.
I hope when I do feel less gut wrenching pain it's not because I have forgotten
