The lesson

I know there is a lesson to learn from Lev's death, but since I have not yet learned it, I do not know what it is. I await enlightenment. In the meantime I feel stuck, in limbo. I think about all the details of the day he died, hoping to finally understand it, to move on from that frozen moment when he laid dead upon the hospital bed. But for now I remain forever by his side, unable to leave, stricken and paralyzed with the true deep horror of utter loss.

..tony..