the future

Lev would have loved playing with a band. He was just really getting into playing bass, playing with Tony and all of us together. Jaal got to play with Tony's band the night before he went to college. We had talked about Lev playing bass and Jaal guitar. Jaal has taken up bass guitar now, and he played on a song. It was Lev's favorite song, and it was a great tribute to Lev.
Jaal is turning into such a nice adult. I'm so sorry that Lev won't have that same opportunity. There is so much that he will miss out on.

Although Tony and I are more able to function, little by little, it doesn't make the pain any easier. If anything, the grief is getting a little harder, deeper.
Tonight we will try to go to a "Loss of a Child" grief group. We'll see how that goes.